LIVING ALONE

Hubby left yesterday at 3:00 am. I was crying the night before while we spent time together in the sofa. We been so busy in the previous days doings things that needs to be done. Then last sunday, he prepared his things that he needs to bring to Alberta, personal things, books and papers for work. 

My heart breaks everytime he said I love you and I miss you. I can't help myself but cry. It was already almost 1:00 am when we slept and he needs to wake up at 3:00 am.

The taxi arrived on time. I was really crying when I saw the taxi in the driveway, that means he has to go. I don't want to stop him or else he will miss his flight. When he was at the door, I hug him so tight and cry in his shoulder. I know it was hard for him too but with the money he will earn there encourage him to work and aside from that, he likes his job and he like the people that work with him. He feels that he's only in his vacation.

When I saw the taxi leaving, I felt so weak and I cry and cry and cry until 9:00 am. I was hugging his pillow and it make me feel better.

I had a hard time to sleep last night..we've talked in the phone but after talking, I was not able to sleep. I waited too long before I took a sleeping pills. I slept  around 3:00 am again and woke up 7:00 am, prepare myself, had breakfast and drive straight to work. I just hope that I can sleep tonight. I have to.

I miss my hubby so much.